It came as I was reading The Journey of Desire; the realization that purpose was a lot more
than I’d thought. I've always believed God has a purpose for each of us; a plan
to give us a future and a hope, you know. But subconsciously, I'd come to
imagine the scenario as more like God distributing random assorted purposes and
callings as we made our entrance into the world. That we came into existence
and then God gave us a purpose. I
still thought it was God given, but He designed it after my faults and
inadequacies and experiences became evident - almost like my purpose was based
on my worthiness. If I messed up too much, my purpose might have to be
modified.
But it's all so untrue. As this book pointed
out, in a paragraph I can't find, the purpose precedes us. Our purpose wasn't
designed for us; we were designed for it. God had this purpose, this calling,
this need to be fulfilled, and He specifically hand designed us as the perfect
fit for it. Every experience and struggle we've had, God turns into a part of
fulfilling our purpose. The sins we struggle with help us encourage others
struggling in those areas, the losses we've faced help us grieve with others,
and the joys we have help us rejoice with others. Not one part of our calling
is accidental, and not one part of our experience is wasted.
I was reading Psalm 139 this morning - it's a
beautiful psalm. Verses 14 to 18 say:
'I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and
wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right
well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and
curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Thine eyes did see my
substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written,
which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. How
precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! If
I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am
still with thee.'
Another Bible version translates verse 16 as:
'Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your
book all my days were recorded, even
those which were purposed before they had come into being.' Our lives had a
purpose before we existed.
Friends, you have been hand designed - the
very workmanship of God - for a purpose only you can fulfil. You are not a
mistake, and the things you have been through are not a mistake. Pursue the
burden on your heart, the experience which makes you come alive, the calling
you feel you have!
I was deeply encouraged to realize this more,
but also convicted. I've put off following my purpose for many reasons, but
often because I couldn't see how it was going to come together. I’d figured out
what, and I knew why, but how was beyond my vision. Then I read Priceless again, and a fragment of one
conversation stood out to me. It's when Dale is having an unofficial mentoring
session with James, if you know the story:
‘Dale picked up a chipped-off fragment of the
rock they were sitting on and sent it skittering down the hill. “You know what to do. You’re just struggling with
the how.”
‘James stared at the stars, half-expecting
the wind to blow them around the way it – the way everything – was whipping him
around.
‘“You know the direction to walk in,” Dale
said. “So you point your feet and start walking. The stuff in your path?” James
felt him shrug. “That’s not up to you.”’ Priceless,
page 228
So, I'm learning. I'm learning that walking
in our purpose is a lot about faith and trust. It’s about taking the next right
step, even when we don’t see the big picture, because God knows. It's already
there in His plan, and He will direct us. It’s what we were created for.
I also want to encourage anyone who doesn't
know what their specific purpose or calling is yet. I've been there, and it's
confusing and isolating. But please know that God has a special plan for you
even if you can’t see it yet. He's shaping you for your purpose. And if you
aren't sure which direction to go for the next step to following your calling,
press closer to God. Ultimately, our purposes are all found in Him. xx
woooooooow.
ReplyDeleteyes yes yes.
this is so powerful and true!
thanks for sharing, dear girl! so glad i found your blog! <3
Aw, praise God it could be a blessing to you! Thanks for your sweet comment! So glad to have you here. :)
DeleteJesseca, this post was really really amazing. That last paragraph really touched my heart, because that is where I'm at. It's encouraging to know that no matter how uncertain I am about the future, Gods plan and His purpose for me will prevail. Thank you so much for this post!
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Praise God, Brooklyne! Yes, keep holding on to that assurance! God absolutely had something beautiful in mind when He made you. Many blessings, friend!
DeleteGreat post, Jess!
ReplyDeleteEphesians 1:5,11 talks about how He predestined us to be adopted into His family, and that our inheritance in Him was predestined. You’re right, God already knew our purpose before we were even in the womb.
I have a couple of ideas circulating my brain for my future, but don’t know anything definitely. It’s comforting to remember that He knows my future.
Thanks for sharing this! :)
Ah, it's so cool you mentioned those verses, because I've been studying Ephesians! It is fascinating to think God had each one of us in mind, and intended us for good works as His children!
DeleteThe future is such a confusing and elusive thing sometimes! Keep trusting though - I'm sure God will continue to reveal it to you, step by step. :) Thanks for your comment!
i love this!! so so true. thank you for sharing this <333
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad it could speak to you! Thanks for your sweet comment, Paige! xx
DeleteThank you for sharing this, Jessica! It encouraged me greatly... the last two sentences are pure gold. xx
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad God used it to be an encouragement to you, Emily! Thanks for your lovely comment. xx
DeleteI feel at ease after reading these words. I needed to read this. Thank you Jess!
ReplyDeleteAw, I am so glad V! God's timing is so perfect. :) Thank you!
DeleteJessica, thank you so much for speaking truth like this. This topic has been on my mind a LOT lately, and your post really encourages me. Keep sharing the truth; you're making a difference!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for your kind encouragement, Georgie! Praise God this could speak to your current situation! Thanks for your comment. :) xx
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