30 July, 2017

A Note On Insecurity


I’m insecure. It’s a tiny sentence, but I haven’t wanted to admit that. Other people have insecurities. I can see them, and I’ve even looked to make sure I wasn’t doing the same thing. But I had an experience which gave me a different perspective. I saw my insecurities: I saw they were changing the way I behaved, the people I talked to, the self-talk I allowed. I noticed a change in my interactions with people in real life, and I gave time to my insecurities about online interactions. Is it worth blogging? Am I offending people? What if no one reads it? Can I even write? I want to share what I feel God’s been teaching me, but what if it’s not really truth?

You may have noticed a gap in my posting (or you may not have, as my insecurities would like to point out). It’s not because of a lack of desire or things to say. I’ve been busy, yes, but I’ve been hesitating. I want to be honest: I have insecurities about blogging. 

They’ve been there all along, but I hear God calling me to do more with blogging – to go deeper, to see it as my ministry, to open up and allow Him to work. It’s a step out of my comfort zone; it requires walking past those insecurities.

It’s made me realize something: insecurity is about fear. Why am I insecure about this? It’s because I’m scared. But God doesn’t dwell in fear. He’s love, and perfect love casts out fear. (1 John 4:18) And that’s the answer to my problem, my weakness, my struggle: more love, more God.

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Everyone has insecurities.  They’re a natural part of life in our fallen world. I’m not suggesting to glorify them, but please, don’t be insecure about your insecurities. If you’re struggling with something, feeling alone, feeling less-than, scared about what people will think, about what you’re called to do, about the past or the present or the future: you’re not alone. You’re beautiful, you’re loved, and you have purpose.

“But now thus saith the Lord that created thee… Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine. When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee. For I am the Lord thy God, the Holy One of Israel, thy Saviour: I gave Egypt for thy ransom, Ethiopia and Seba for thee. Since thou wast precious in my sight, thou hast been honourable, and I have loved thee…” Isaiah 43:1-4

Let’s be a little kinder to those around us: we don’t know what they might be struggling with inside. Let’s be a little more open, because we’re all in this, and connection is powerful. And when we find ourselves facing those fears, let’s go to the One who is perfect love, and let His truth set us free. 

Thanks for listening, and I hope to see you more often from now on. In the meantime, what has been on your heart recently? Is insecurity something you struggle with? How do you think we can combat it? Tell me what’s going on for you. I appreciate you all, and you bless me so much. 

Jessica xx